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Stephanie Elaine Shiflet
In 1997, one night in a motel room I was smoking crack cocaine. With each hit, I began to think about my life, where it used to be and where I was in that moment.
I utterly hated myself. I was no longer the “little miss goody two shoes” I had been growing up. I was so far from that person, so I decided to pray to Yehovah to kill me with each hit. I thought it would be better that Yehovah end my life as I was worthless. I had squandered everything of value in my life, and I had nothing left. I had no ambition; I’d lost family, friends, jobs, opportunities, and dreams. I had literally nothing left, not even a home or a bed of my own. I did not own a car or even a bicycle. I had some stuff, just worthless stuff. I had some jewelry, but it was stolen by a prostitute that was on heroin.
All I could think of was how I had lost and given up. I walked away from the best man (husband #1) I ever had in my entire life. I was stuck with (husband #2) who repeatedly told me that he loved “crack” more than he loved me. I kept praying for death to take me as I did another hit.
Then, I heard a LOUD AUBIBLE male Voice laughing with authority as I prayed to die to end it all.
He said laughing, “I’m not done with you yet.”
I was so high I thought it was Yehovah speaking to me, and I was saddened that Yehovah would say that to me at that dark time in my life. It really upset me to hear I had to endure more pain and to suffer from this existence. I wanted to end it, but I remembered the last two times I had tried to commit suicide, they had failed.
My only option was to plead with Yehovah to take my life and end my suffering. I was not even really living for anything but that next hit. I was told repeatedly by husband #2, “One hit was too many, and a thousand would never be enough.” This is such a true statement if there ever was one about crack cocaine. I had a job that was just to fund my next fix come payday.
I was married to the one that introduced me to it. It’s true; he didn’t make me do anything that I wasn’t already willing to do. I was already in self-destruct mode when we met. I had nothing more to lose. So, I decided that, since Yehovah wasn’t going to allow me to die that night, I confessed every sin I could think of and I re-accepted Yeshua (Jesus) Messiah into my heart. I asked for the Ruach HaKodesh (Holy Spirit) to fill me and promised, if Yehovah would make a way, I would not walk but run through that open door.
It took a little more than two years for me to become strong enough to walk away from both husband #2 and crack on the same day! I have been clean since 2002. It was some years later that I came to know it wasn’t Yehovah speaking to me that night; rather, it was HaSatan (Satan) who I had heard. I will never forget that voice, and I never want to hear it again!
Thank you for sharing this amazing testimony of the FATHER leaving the 99 to go after the 1 - You. May HE continue to lead and guide you, and may your testimony help others.