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“Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth concerning anything that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father who is in heaven. For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.” – Matthew 18:19-20
I have loved my husband for 40 years. We have been separated for 23 years. I believe with him in Michael’s teachings, and many others featured on the show. I take what my husband says as truth. And he is so incredibly intelligent, and has faithfully sought the truth for so long, He has served in Syria, the Golan Heights, Germany, Egypt, etc, as a Canadian Peacekeeper. He wants to serve Yehovah. The problem? In earlier days of our marriage, he was not a nice man. Vows were broken and he had tendencies to solve things physically, if he deemed it necessary. I love him, and would reconcile, but he doesn’t want me. He is nice to me on the surface because he needs what I can give. Vehicle (he can’t currently drive due to health issues), family time, as I host all our family gatherings, caretaker as he is hard of hearing/some memory loss/ and generally not very tolerant, but I take him to all appointments, groceries, errands, etc.
He loves his children deeply, and he never stops searching for truth/Yehovah.
My deep pain is that he is such a ‘big picture’ and ‘look beyond the obvious’ kind of guy, that he just sees me as useful at this point. I have stayed in this for reconciliation, but I don’t think he ever truly wanted that. I feel used and naive. Through many examples that I will not share, it is clear that I am useful to him, and he somewhat likes my company, but he hasn’t loved me, as a wife, since, maybe even before we married.
Yehovah knows all the details. He knows my pain and disappointment, as well as my husband’s. I personally think my husband loves me for what I can provide. I am deeply hurting that he truly does not want me, and hasn’t forever, and that I have lost all perspective and believe what he does because I desperately want him to love me.
I absolutely believe In Yehovah and Yeshua. I am just so lost and hurting about how this marriage is this way. We have both hurt each other, so true. But if through all of this, I still love him, why doesn’t he love me? Yehovah knows. I just pray for faith to see this through, and to serve Him, no matter the outcome.
My sincere thanks. He is a good man.